Reprogramming of missy

The next e-mail from Miss created a lot of excitement.  The first real assignment after missy was born.  What would it be?  How does the Princess plan to train missy?  i opened the e-mail with much excitement – “Reprogramming”!

Just the title of the assignment made this sissy even more excited and her sissy clitty got very hard and throbbing.  i read and reread the assignment.  i wanted to digest every word and make sure i didn’t miss a detail.  This assignment was the first real indication to this sissy of how hard becomming missy was going to be.  This wasn’t a game.  If i really wanted to be missy, and i do, then i am going to have to obey Miss without hesitation. 

The first part of the assignment was easy.  i had denied and tried to ignore my desire to be a sissy over the past 5 years so giving up current sissy habits was not going to be difficult.  i had already done that.  It was only when turning my back on my desire to be a real sissy became too much that i sought out the training of Miss.  Therefore, i was ready – i was the blank slate that Miss desired. 

It was the second part of the reprogramming that i knew would be very difficult.  i was no longer allowed to orgasm.  i couldn’t even touch my sissy clitty as a source of pleasure.   Now!, i thought.  i get so aroused, so excited when thinking about being missy and when writing in my diary.  Even setting up my diary made this sissy excited.  i knew this would be very difficult for me.  To be honest, i thought at first i can’t do this.  However, once i calmed down i thought about how much i want to be missy.  i thought about how only Miss knows the best way for me to become the sissy i desire to become.  This sissy also wants to please and obey Miss.  Miss knows what is best for this sissy and for those reasons i will obey Her.  From this moment on, my sissy clitty is off limits except at the command of Miss.  As Miss discussed in “Reprogramming”, this requirement also will also force me to bring out my training to my significant other sooner than i had planned.  i want to tell my SO and i plan too tell Her that i am training to be a sissy.  i am hopeful that She will understand that i am ultimately doing this for Her and that it will make me a better SO and will hopefully i can serve as Her sissy slave.  However, i am not ready to tell Her yet and i hope that my training will progress before i share everything with Her.  As Miss said, i can not lie to Her so i will have to be creative about not being able to orgasm until i am able to share my training with Her.  In a way, i think this will be very good as i can focus on only pleasing Her.  Hopefully She will quickly see the benefits of a relationship where as a sissy slave i will be totally focused on Her pleasure.

Yes, the entry is again getting this sissy very aroused but she will not touch her sissy clitty.

missy is born

Today i began the road to becomming missy.  Miss has graciously decided to train me as the sissy i have desired to be for as long as i can remember.  Chosing a name was this sissy’s first assignment.  For years, when dreaming of being a woman or a sissy, i used the female version of my male name.  Natually, my first thought was to chose that name as my new name.   However, in the first assignment Miss said to think about a girl this sissy may have known.  She instructed us to think back to school and think about the girliest girl or the biggest tramp.  All day i thought about girls i knew growing up and who brought out feelings in me i didn’t understand at the time.  Then i remembered “Missy.”  i went to high school with a girl named Missy and she was very feminine, always dressed very slutty, and had the reputation of being a tramp.  i always loved seeing Missy and talking to Missy.  At the time i didn’t really know why i liked her so much but i think now it was because i wanted to be Missy.  i wanted to have Missy’s feminine body, her big tits, her great ass, and her slutty look.  This sissy wanted to be a slut just like Missy.  So tonight, missy, was born and i hope to leave my male self behind.

 In the first assignment, i stood in front of the mirror naked and said “my name is missy.”  Standing in front of the mirror i gentle pointed to the bald head, the penis and the flat chest that belonged to tony.  As Miss instructed, i was aroused when i started the assignment but after looking at tony’s male parts, i was sad, no longer aroused and replused.  Then this sissy began to focus on missy’s attributes.  i touched missy’s full lips, missy’s shapely legs, and missy’s firm ass.  It was enjoyable to touch missy’s femine parts and think about how they could be more feminine and sissy.  missy got very excited thinking about how her full lips and firm ass could be used to please men.  Within minutes all the bad thoughts related to tony’s male parts had vanished.   i was much more happy and aroused thinking about missy.  i feel more comfortable as missy.

Tonight missy was born and i will work hard to make sure missy is the perfect sissy.